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The Great Tale Of How I Ruined It All

by Jhariah

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DOOMSDAY 01:06
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[Verse 1] The world has turned itself on it’s head The trees don’t grow they kill instead Where hope once was the light’s turned black We find find faith in the strangest places [Pre-Chorus] The marchers walk the streets in reverse with their heads down Blind to the color they’ve painted this town They stare at mirrors, wearing masks And prudently perform their task [Chorus] They march along in single file Surrendering their sense of style Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smiles [Verse 2] How can you watch our castles crumble down? (Stand in the ashes of your city that burned to the ground) I’m wonderin' where I heard this “You said you'd give me purpose” [Pre-Chorus] The marchers walk the streets in reverse with their heads down Blind to the color they’ve painted this town They stare at mirrors, wearing masks And prudently perform their task [Instrumental] [Chorus] They march along in single file Surrendering their sense of style Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smiles March along in single file Surrendering their sense of style Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smiles [Bridge] The uniform will set you free Close your eyes and you will see They’ll soon do to you what they’ve done to me [Chorus] They march along in single file Surrendering their sense of style (To me) Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smiles (To me) March along in single file Surrendering their sense of style (Me) Happily police the streets With vacant eyes and plastic smiles
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[Intro] Kerosene lit lanterns burn through faded pages Not a single star graces our sky tonight The crickets have grown bored of filling our silent spaces We’re losing time and got to make this right [Verse 1] I sing this song to incinerate your skin Just sing along and... (dance) Build for us from their ashes A brand new city Set fire to your matches Dowse them in gasoline [Pre-Chorus] Rebuilding skyscrapers from broken glass and broken souls Ain't got no blueprint just a purpose and a wrecking ball [Chorus] Brick by brick, we’ll take back what they took Stand in the ashes of what once belonged to you And I’m so sick of this Just take a good hard look At how they blurred your vision And they shaped your view [Verse 2] Let the sun just incinerate your skin To start all over Rebuild what they destroyed (Destroyed!) Make weapons of your voice (Your voice!) Whatever they employ, I’ll exploit, make null and void [Pre-Chorus] Rebuilding skyscrapers from broken glass and broken souls Ain't got no blueprint just a purpose and a wrecking ball [Chorus] Brick by brick, we’ll take back what they took Stand in the ashes of what once belonged to you And I’m so sick of this Just take a good hard look At how they blurred your vision And they shaped your view Oh, brick by brick, we’ll take back what they took Stand in the ashes of what once belonged to you And I’m so sick of this Just take a good hard look At how they blurred your vision And they shaped your view [Bridge] I set all of these fires But now I’m the one who’s all burnt out Why is it so hard to fight for what's right I’m breaking down And what if I stepped out of this ring I abandoned everything I can’t carry this team Marching along in single file (This team, this team!) Surrendering their lives (This team) [Chorus 2] Pitch black clouds shadow the burning sun But I won’t let these vultures think that they have won I’ll be the last one standing when the end’s begun I’ll hide away so I don’t have to run [Chorus] Brick by brick, we’ll take back what they took Stand in the ashes of what once belonged to you And I’m so sick of this Just take a good hard look At how they blurred your vision And they shaped your view Oh, brick by brick, we’ll take back what they took Stand in the ashes of what once belonged to you And I’m so sick of this Just take a good hard look At how they blurred your vision And they shaped your view
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[Intro: Jhariah and Luis Chavez] I’ve found my home Inside these walls the world is my own I write the rules alone in here I sit atop a throne [Verse 1] I’m safe and sound Despite the battlefield that surrounds I breathe inside a vacuum here Hiding beneath the ground I have piece of mind I know they’ll never take me alive You can take all you want but my Mind will always be mine [Verse 2] All my thoughts inhabit these floors They sing out louder than this war Their notes whisper no more They howl and roar Violently piercing the sky Breaking out of their cage Oh, can you hear them now they’re screaming at me [Pre-Chorus] Lock me up Throw out the key I’ve found my home [Chorus] I can’t give up what my mind creates I won’t be captive won’t be dead I’ll trap myself instead These four walls extend beyond my sight And breathe new life into me [Verse 3] Dimly lit, the room emits a hollow, muffled sound It houses a single sorry soul No other to be found Water-damaged off white ceilings Crumbling crown molding Faded paint and threadbare linens and There's no place I'd rather sleep [Pre-Chorus] Lock me up Throw out the key I’ve found my home [Chorus] I can’t give up what my mind creates I won’t be captive won’t be dead I’ll trap myself instead These four walls extend beyond my sight And breathe new life into me [Bridge: Jhariah and Luis Chavez] In solidarity I’ll hide inside so they let me be They won’t get me Locked up, I’m free With my thoughts [Chorus] I can’t give up what my mind creates I won’t be captive won’t be dead I’ll trap myself instead These four walls extend beyond my sight And breathe new life into me
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[Verse 1] A soldier told me “boy, you can't escape, They're gonna Find you soon or later and then You'll be just like me” he said “You're exactly what they're looking for and they're gonna Find you, theres nowhere to hide!” Well I for one can tell you that Its never hard to keep out of sight Its just a trick up the sleeve. They Have no idea what they’re looking for And ain't gonna find it I know how to hide Right beneath your noses Where you least expect and never will look Silently, obnoxiously, taunting every step that you take Not a single footprint following the steps that I took This one'll go down in the books [Pre-Chorus] So watch watch me disappear before your eyes And catch me if you can [Chorus] Catch me, catch me, misplace and mismatch me Tie your shoes in knots but you'll never harass me Find me, find me, I dare you to try I’ll bet on my survival But now you’re gonna die out there [Verse 2] And suddenly I feel I'm invincible, a needle in hay Detachable from all the wicked things in that place It's a miracle that I got out of bed everyday Before I knew I'd live to Savor this day I'm taking off To my own grave I'm running away [Pre-Chorus] So watch watch me disappear before your eyes And catch me if you can [Chorus] Catch me, catch me, misplace and mismatch me Tie your shoes in knots but you’ll never harass me Find me, find me, I dare you to try I’ll bet on my survival But now you’re gonna die out there [Chorus] Catch me, catch me, misplace and mismatch me Tie your shoes in knots but you’ll never harass me Find me, find me, I dare you to try I’ll bet on my survival But now you’re gonna die out there [Spoken] Where could I be? Walking among you or inside your own homes? Or perhaps there's a part of me in all of you. (Hahaha!) [Bridge] So catch me if you can Catch me if you dare Venture through the foul and you'll see what's fair Catch me if you can Catch me if you dare You'll find me through the fog and the filthy air [Chorus] Catch me, catch me, misplace and mismatch me Tie your shoes in knots but you’ll never harass me Find me, find me, I dare you to try I’ll bet on my survival But now you’re gonna die out there [Chorus] Catch me, catch me, misplace and mismatch me Tie your shoes in knots but you’ll never harass me here Find me, find me, I dare you to try I’ll bet on my survival But now you’re gonna die out there
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Not So Bad 03:24
[Verse 1] I may be wrong but I don’t wanna be right And I wanna save the world but I’m thinking I might Destroy it from the inside out, inside out If I’m gonna die it’ll be my way It may be the end of it as we know (may be the end of it as we know) And I just hope that it won’t be my fault (just hope that it won’t be your fault) I’m the only one on this side of the war Alone, alone, and rotten to the core [Chorus] So maybe it’s not so bad if I just fall in line If I just give in would it be a crime? If I tried it, I might like it But every ounce of me resists and I can’t describe it [Verse 2] I won’t believe a word you say I know you might be right You might be saving humankind But my inseparable pride Might be the death of you and me, me, me, yeah [Bridge] It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad It’s just the end of the world [Chorus] So maybe it’s not so bad if I just fall in line If I just give in would it be a crime? If I tried it, I might like it But every ounce of me resists and I can’t describe it Maybe it’s not so bad if I just fall in line If I just give in would it be a crime? If I tried it, I might like it But every ounce of me resists and I can’t describe it [Post-Chorus] Me, me, me, yeah It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad (So maybe it's not so bad) It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad (So maybe it's not so bad) It’s just the end of the world (So maybe it's not so bad) It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad (So maybe it's not so bad) It’s not so bad, It’s not so bad (So maybe it's not so bad)
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Reverse 04:53
[Verse 1] I’m only here to kill my own confusion I found a backdoor but no solution Lying here while the sands fall down Won't heal my hands right now or their blue contusions I’m on a hell-bound elevator When I got on I never planned for it to be this way I burnt out the white hot flame inside me Now my skin is scorched to ashes And I’m burning in the flame [Chorus] I wish I could reverse, reverse And stop the hour glass Because the earth is spinning round' the sun too fast A dead end awaits this pointless track I’m thinking I might get off and just turn back [Verse 2] I’m starting to see that the world is gonna end without me I don’t wanna let it pass me by I don’t wanna die here in this hole I won’t fade away I’ll detonate my soul [Chorus] I wish I could reverse, reverse And stop the hour glass Because the earth is spinning round' the sun too fast A dead end awaits this pointless track I’m thinking I might get off and just turn back I wish I could Reverse, Reverse And stop the hour glass Because the earth is spinning round' the sun too fast A dead end awaits this pointless track I’m thinking I might get off and just turn back [Bridge] Then a fire started in the hallway And the smoke rose to the sky I looked inside myself and asked my ego why If ashes turn to cities and the stars into the moon Then why am I inside of my own mind? [Chorus] I wish I could reverse, reverse And stop the hour glass Because the earth is spinning round' the sun too fast A dead end awaits this pointless track I’m thinking I might get off and just turn back Reverse, reverse And stop the hour glass Because the earth is spinning round' the sun too fast A dead end awaits this pointless track I’m thinking I might get off and just turn back [Outro] I wish I could reverse, reverse My time is running out Because these words, they burn And scorch inside my mouth I’m mashing the buttons on the wall I’m realizing that this car only goes down
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[Verse] You’re past the halfway point of a Story that hopefully has a happy ending You’re safe for now but are you happy? Could you survive forever without living? In any case, stay safe, stay strong And never let them think they’ve won Because once something’s been thought It enters this wasteland that we call the real world Then it becomes as real as you and me And once that happens, it can happen
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Promises 04:00
[Intro] Nowhere to run Nowhere to hide Your time is up End of the line What will you do about your promises You bit off more than you can chew [Verse 1] I screamed at the top of my swollen lungs “You’ll never get away with this” I’ll be your villain if that’s what it takes To continue burning how I’ve been [Pre-Chorus] I promise this isn’t the end As they dragged me away by my neck Desperately gasping for air I swore to all of you that I’d get my revenge And you’ll want yours When your kingdom falls in blazing glory Then we’ll see who’s won When your pawns betray your every single will [Chorus] So when you go, won't you close the door? Behind the world you used to own Cause it won’t be yours anymore I won’t break all the promises I made to resist everything you do And everything you say [Verse 2] When you tried to take the spark in our eyes Did you think it could go this wrong I’d suggest that you raise your white flag high Cause you lost when your puppets reclaimed their lives [Pre-Chorus] I promised this to all my friends To protect our identities Desperately fighting for a chance I swore to All of you that I'd get my revenge And you’ll want yours When your kingdom falls in blazing glory Then we’ll see who’s won When your pawns betray your every single will [Chorus] So when you go, won't you close the door? Behind the world you used to own Cause it won’t be yours anymore I won’t break all the promises I made to resist everything you do And everything you say So when you go, won't you close the door? Behind the world you used to own Cause it won’t be yours anymore I won’t break all the promises I made to resist everything you do And everything you say [Bridge] So give a round of applause To your "brainless audience" To all of your "loyal pawns" To their mindless radiance [Chorus] So when you go, won't you close the door? Behind the world you used to own Cause it won’t be yours anymore I won’t break all the promises I made to resist everything you do And everything you say So when you go, won't you close the door? Behind the world you used to own Cause it won’t be yours anymore I won’t break all the promises I made to resist everything you do And everything you say
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Sunsets 02:30
[Intro] I’ve been seeing sunsets for so long Wonder how the sun feels when it falls I’ve been searching so hard to find out Why it rises every morning [Verse 1] I wish for unending resolve To always get up when I fall, when I fall And if they kick me when I’m down Hope I separate my body from the ground and get up Ba-da-ba-da-ba-ba-da-ba-da-ba And follow with my heart The momentum of that giant gleaming star [Pre-Chorus] So what can I do How can I be So bright and true The sun wonders of me [Chorus] So take me to the light behind the moon And all the stars that lit that dark and desolate room And without fail I will prevail I will light up this gloomy world Soon as I’m done lighting up myself [Verse 2] I’ve got a feeling that this chapter Will soon come to an end, to an end And then we all can go to sleep The burden of our bodies on our feet will let up Ba-da-ba-da-ba-ba-da-ba-da-ba Ba-da-ba-ba-da-ba When the burning sun Begins to fall [Pre-Chorus] So what can I do How can I be So bright and true The sun wonders of me [Chorus] So take me to the light behind the moon And all the stars that lit that dark and desolate room And without fail I will prevail I will light up this gloomy world Soon as I’m done lighting up my Soon as I’m done lighting up my Soon as I’m done lighting up myself
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Goodbye 04:18
[Intro] I never thought I Would muster the courage to leave here I broke free of what kept me trapped here And I don’t think I’m coming back here So goodbye, farewell I don’t need you now I don’t need you now [Verse 1] These decaying walls were all that kept me sane I entrusted everything I had and all my pain In this Sheetrock jail, this self made prison I’ve survived fine but I’m not living This cautionary coffin, that I’m not dying off in I’m breaking out to face my enemies This time I’ll stop them Almost forget them hiding in the dark But they remember me and have my name upon their scars [Pre-Chorus] Me and my past must rift apart But I’ll always keep this on my arm [Chorus] Goodbye to my new home I miss you dearly even though You might have stolen my whole life But I don’t think that I’d be alone I get this feeling that I’m not the first and not the last To find solace in this empty room Broken but always true [Verse 2] How cliche for me to carve my name Into the insides of this old rotten place I’ll go away until another day I hate that I can miss a room this way It’s sad to say [Pre-Chorus] Me and my past must rift apart But I’ll always keep this on my arm [Chorus] Goodbye to my new home I miss you dearly even though You might have stolen my whole life But I don’t think that I’d be alone I get this feeling that I’m not the first and not the last To find solace in this empty room Broken but always true [Bridge] Finally leave this shallow lens to Just move on and make amends With my past self, my naive goals Take my wishes to the end [Chorus] Goodbye to my new home I miss you dearly even though You might have stolen my whole life But I don’t think that I’d be alone I get this feeling that I’m not the first and not the last To find solace in this empty room Broken but always true [Outro] Me and my past must rift apart But I’ll always keep this on my arm
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[Verse 1] Humor me for another minute or two Please let me tell you how it ends Hear the great tale of how I ruined it all If you have the will to spend [Verse 2] A curtain closes on our story An empire fallen from glory A selfish sense of justice Implored me to save myself Strange how it takes being down to have Something to stand for [Pre-Chorus] Then it all went down I bid farewell I took the crown from where it fell I Pulled the roots from where they Rested In the rotten depths of hell [Chorus] Can you hear the sound? Of a brand new kingdom now Of our old lights fizzled out Light a new fire for what we used to aspire to be You can’t tell me how to live Or for what I’d give my life Now the whole world’s singing this Anthem into the dark of night [Verse 3] And in the dark we all gather one last time To make something of the sticks and stones That once built up their thrones From sawdust build a brand new home, oh [Pre-Chorus 2] And it all went down I bid farewell I took the crown from where it fell A bright new flame A blinding light Astounding brilliance Brand new life [Chorus] Can you hear the sound? Of a brand new kingdom now Of our old lights fizzled out Light a new fire for what we used to aspire to be You can’t tell me how to live Or for what I’d give my life Now the whole world’s singing this Anthem into the dark of night [Bridge] In the lens through which some eyes will see This tale is one of failure And though I don’t think I’m your enemy I’ll never be your savior And in the lens through which some eyes will see This tale is one of victory And though I don’t think I’m a failure I don’t deserve your sympathy [Chorus] Can you hear the sound? Of a brand new kingdom now Of our old lights fizzled out Light a new fire for what we used to aspire to be You can’t tell me how to live Or for what I’d give my life Now the whole world’s singing this Anthem into the dark of night [Outro] So we draw a new curtain A new door becomes open The tale of the sun has Come to an end (But the tale of the sun can’t end)

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The Great Tale Of How I Ruined It All is a concept album about a boy who's city is taken over by a cult with one goal; to brainwash the population into uniformity. When his creativity is threatened, he runs away, only to return and destroy the home he loves in a misdirected fit of rage.

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released August 10, 2018

Art direction & Illustration: Jhariah Clare
All tracks produced, mixed, and mastered by Jhariah Clare

“DOOMSDAY” and “The Marching Dolls” contain live strings played by
the Fordham Prep String ensemble, recorded at Fordham Preparatory
School in Bronx, NY.
Violin: Christopher Garcia.
Viola: Declan Wicks.
Cellos: Liam Higgins, Charlie O’Conner.
All live strings conducted by Dylan LaGamma.

Special Thanks to:
Cristina, Anna, Luis, Chrystian, Mr. LaGamma,
Mr. Weldon, Cindy, Coby, and the
Fordham Prep Drama Society
for each helping to make this project happen.

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